What would you do if you could do it without pain? It’s a really good question.
My life since my injury has been one where I have had moments of fear and doubt. I have worried I am making it worse. I worried I caused it by over working myself.I feared it would never get better. I have tried to push it, stretch it, roll it, use heat, use ice, and even take pain medication. I’ve seen a chiropractor, physical therapist, masseuse, and even taped it with kinesiology tape.
The whole time, I just wanted to get back to doing what I had always done with ease. I wanted to be pain free, strong, and full motion. The good news? I will get there. The bad news? It won’t be without pain.
Honestly, all the best things in my life have happened with pain. My walk with God is painful. He’s changed so much of me that was hard wired. It was the only way he could get this close to me. He had to break my bad habits and change my heart for the better.
My daughter came with great pain. No epidural and no Lamaze training. She was a gift only God could give and I am grateful every day.
Dance has been a battle and often emotionally and physically painful. I cannot imagine not doing it. It’s been my heart and passion for a very long time.
Business is incredibly painful. Sometimes you have no money and bills. Sometimes you have no clients and bills. Sometimes you have a bad landlord, a bad lease, and difficult people who make every situation harder than it needs to be. You have to make the best of it. You have to keep trying. You have to work harder than you’ve ever worked before. You have to learn things you aren’t good at and look at yourself in a more critical way than you may be prepared for.
Lastly, making my life with Mitch has been painful. I have driven the beltway daily and in storms. I have had to let go of my ego and accept that I cannot always change the way people see me. I have had to work hard to drop my past so I can step into a future with him. I have become more aware of how I say things, do things, and how to be kind in corrections for myself and each other. Merging two families can be painful. It can be really great too.
What would you do without pain? I don’t know anymore. Sometimes the pain is a signal to make a change. Change is necessary. Change is important. So in this time of great change in America, let’s remember that change is good. Pain can be good too. Let’s take the pain we are in and do something to make it better. I’m ready. Are you?
I love you. God loves you. Let’s make the change. Let’s seek to heal the pain in the hearts of those around us and for ourselves. God can do the impossible and so can we when we walk in his abidance.